The meaningless girl is back.

There's no beating round the bush with this one. I hate myself. I hate myself with a passion. I wish I was a skinny as the next girl, but I'm not. I went up 4lbs in the last 2 days. I don't know how, but the scales don't lie. I was searching thinspo fr my art project, after watching a programme with a mia kid in it, and something inside me just kicked off. I don't know what it was, all I know is, I NEED to get thinner. I'm surrounded by stunning and thin girls on a day to day basis, and I can't exactly get prettier, so I have to get thinner. So, I've decided to attempt ana again. Yeah, I've been here before, I know how damn hard it is. My problem is, I always think, 'One more day, then I'll start.' But one day turns into a week, and before you know it, I'm 10lbs heavier than before. I've always hated myself and had problems with my self-image, but if I can do this, then I can do anything.

I hate having to buy a size 10-12. I want to be a size 6-8. And I would love to be a 2 digit weight in lbs. That's my long term goal. My weight now is 128.9lbs. My short term goal is to be 120lbs. So hopefully, this plan will work. I've picked up a few tips along the way:
1. Eat Ice if you get peckish.

2. If you cut up an apple into 6 pieces, you can eat 1 every 2 hours.

3. Stall, meaning if you keep telling yourself you will eat on the hour, hold off for 10 minuets and then tell yourself you have to wait another hour because you missed your chance.

4. If the thinspo ain't working for you, look at pics of fat chicks. They put you right off food.

5. Eat infront of a mirror and see how disgusting you look.

-BB